Teaching Me...

I had no idea you could teach me so much when you are so little. All the late night moments together are probably my favorite. You have taught me trust, with the look on your face as you lay your head on my shoulder as we dance and rock to soothe you. You have taught me to appreciate the fact that I'm very capable and adaptable like when I can make some of your first smiles happen, or cease your crying. You have taught me I'm truly a kinder more caring person than I've ever given myself credit for and I notice this with my need to to touch, hold, smell you even when I'm worn out from all of it. Mainly you are teaching me patience in life. Waiting for you to arrive, waiting to get my body back, being okay with not "accomplishing" big lofty things, waiting to hear you say you love me so I can finally know that I'm important to you not just in the survival sense. I told your Da last night that being a wife and mom is truly what I was destined to do and the rest doesn't really mean shit. It's an exciting feeling to finally know what to put all my energy towards... I am very determined to be both wife and mom to the best of my ability. Thank you for teaching me to slow down. To appreciate small achievements. For letting me see late night moons and early sunrises. Thanks for letting me re-experience all the things I love about the world as I share them with you and see things through your eyes. Thank you for the greatest gift of all... the unending task of loving someone well and whole-heartedly and letting myself be loved in return.