I'm 2 Sheets to the Wind...

I've washed the sheets we slept on and then took our morning nap on, twice before 10... 

that's not your fault, it's the crappy diapers fault. Still, that's never happened in my life before. 

Little hands fluttering on my face...

In the middle of the night, or anytime you are asleep, and you get fussy, I just lay my face near you and you roll right over on your side, and with your soft little hands hold my face. It makes you calm down right away just knowing I'm there. It's a great feeling. The best. 

Pillows and Pacifiers...

We cuddle all night together. When you first go down to sleep you have your paci but by the time we are snuggling you don't want it anymore. So I tuck it under my pillow. It was the sweetest feeling the first time I did it. Like, if someone searched my home they would find that tucked away. Almost like a good luck, sweet dreams token. :) How interesting the changes in my world. 

Time flying...

Time is flying by and I find myself already looking back and saying "remember when?" to your Da. This week has been full of new things with you. You have become so vocal! All the info I read says this is when you will begin "cooing"... lol, well, sweet child, you don't coo. You do this high-pitched squealy thing. Apparently your Father did the same thing. It's loud and I LOVE it! Also this week, you have found your feet with your hands. You had been looking at them for awhile and had been holding your knees to "help me" on the changing table. Now you can grab your left foot/toes and hold on to it/them. I think this really excites you. The only time you get your paci is when it's time for a nap or bed. I give it to you to soothe you and signal "calm time". Now you are trying to learn to suck your thumb, which I'm fine with and all for! Thumbs don't fall on the floor repeatedly. Still, the only time you try this is when you are supposed to be falling asleep and you take out your paci, suck on your hands, play with the paci, suck on your fingers some more, over and over so now it's something that's keeping you up. I'm torn because you are doing so great on your naps and bedtime that I really keep pushing the paci. Hopefully you'll get the hang of your thumb during playtime soon and then we can just rely on that. Most of your beautiful dark hair is gone. You are increasingly blonde, though not the almost snow white that I was, but that may still happen. I'm so excited your Nana is coming for Halloween and making you a costume! You are to be a little dragon this year! lol. Your dad and I had some "tacky" ideas, but Nana didn't want to make those costumes. Anyway, I'm even more excited because she's supposed to bring all of Uncle Christopher's and mine photos of us growing up! I'll have a whole new perspective to look at them with. We are finally going to put them all in albums and then later (if she'll let me keep them) I can scan them all.  That is one thing to know about me... I love photos. You laugh tons now and especially with your Da as he can get pretty silly. You and I have had to sleep in the Blue Room a couple nights since you've been waking around 5 and want to cry and then play. But I get you back to sleep, after MUCH dancing and "shush-ing" and we crash in there. Let's see, oh! yesterday was the first day of Autumn and I'm so excited because I love fall and the Seasonal celebrations that will soon begin! You are napping and I'm going to play online now! I love you Haydin Fischer. 

Being a Mommy...

It is such a joy to have joined a new tribe. 

One that really has meaning.

One that is so worthwhile. 

I feel so bonded to all the moms out there. 

To this glorious task of loving so deep. 

I don't know what I would have done with out you in my life. 

I would have never fully experienced or embraced life.

I love you more and more with each passing moment. 

Each nano-second. 

Your Daddy...

Your father is such an amazing man. I've never seen someone so in love with their son. He's just over-the-moon for you. He can make you smile like no other. We just got back from your first camping trip and Da carried you around in the sling and you two were quite the pair. He is so excited for all the great outdoorsie stuff he'll get to introduce you to and all the amazing places we will go as a family. He's so good to the both of us and I just want you to know son, he thinks you are the best thing that ever happened to him...